Today I slouch in my bed with my laptop on my lap trying to make something insightfully sweet. I have been attempting to do this for days now but failed due to quite a number of distractions. And, okay...laziness. But I really wanted to write this up, this person deserves effort and yes, attention.

Remembering how we met, how it progressed day after day, how it vanished and how it resumed will always give me the feeling of gratefulness. What we have is no ordinary story. Like everybody else’s, ours is unique.  God knows what we’ve been through all these years and what more awaits us in the future. But I guess that’s exactly how it occurred to me that indeed, I made the right decision to love this man. 

He’s not perfect. Neither do I. Admittedly, I could have asked for more but I definitely wouldn’t. Sure he’s not like that and this but he is more than those. I know and I feel. For what we’ve had and what we’ve been through, for who he is and how are we together; by any chance I will always choose him. For three years I have been asking myself what’s on him that freed me from a weird repulsion over having a relationship. I am far from certainty but this I can assume: he's a family. For all those times when I had no family around in a place that is foreign to me, he was there to make me feel at home. Sure, there were others but he's just different. He give me the kind of feeling that is indescribable. Cliche, I know. But that's just how it is. He's home to me. I felt no stranger in him. 

People may question me about him but they will never understand and never will I give them the dignity of an explanation. He knows how much it irritates me hearing  other people talk shit about him and treat him not so well and he just let them be. Be it a joke or not, it's not fair. I've been wanting to get this out and here's my opportunity. 

This is to those who judge, question and doubt you but you call them friends anyway. I love you and they can just shut the fuck up. I just wish they know how wonderful of a person you are, no bias there. They can say anything they want but they will never understand how happy I am with you. Every body else could turn their back on you but not me. Not Amber. We will always be proud of you. 

Ha.

And to you whose patience is constantly being put to test by my temper and tantrums, thank you.  I can be the most difficult person in the world to deal with but you stay still. It means a lot. For everything that has happened, you just proved to me and to everybody else how true of a man you are. For standing up, for absorbing everything I cannot hold anymore, for being there with me at the edge of life. I could never imagine any other person to share all these but with you.

Happy Anniversary!

I love you. Always.