Seriously.
Just give me a year and if I will not learn to love all this, I'll quit.

or

If I really don't get to see and appreciate well the brighter side of this, at least I need to find a waaaaay better substitute, if not the actual place where I should be-- in a year.

Yes, I'm giving myself a strict deadline. Because I don't wanna get jailed and perish doing something that is not me.

#talking to self#